I've taken a good look at what I've written along the way since I started this blog. If I had to say what I've done wrong it would be that I haven't really felt like doing it for me. I've done it with little eagerness, only tried half way, never been passionate about it. I've tried because of my sugar or because of my heart, which in reality should be good enough reasons, but when you don't value yourself like you should, it's hard. My posts have been mocking of myself and my ability to do this right down to the funny pictures I've posted.
New Year.... New attitude. Nothing but inspirational and honesty from here on out. My mom bought my sister and I a Fitbit for Christmas. I've got mine sorted and linked but haven't started logging food or exercise. Tomorrow is the day. I've joined the local fitness center and plan on setting my alarm for 7am. I'll head over, walk the treadmill and then swim. I'll be able to sit in the hot tub when I'm done which should help my joints, which will make it easier to move. I'll come home, make breakfast and start my day rather than sleeping til 10am because I feel like I have nothing to look forward to for the day.
Losing this weight will help in so many ways but most importantly, it's going to help me feel good. I want to see myself happy and enjoying life again rather than hiding at home and feeling sorry for myself. Making excuses for the fact I've failed.
I've stalked Pinterst for clean eating ideas, recipes and a small bit of yoga research. I've made my shopping list so everything will be here and ready. I'll take the time to have things prepared ahead of time so I'm not grabbing something unhealthy because it's easier.
My two biggest goals are to live healthy and the other to build on my jewelry business. Both goals will bring me an insane amount of happiness. There are a few other goals but they will come in time as I show myself I can accomplish these.
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